words swarmingstinging for attentionnot in turnen masse. if I couldI’d compile themcollect themalign themfor battlefor beautyfor sense. alas I never will write a poemyou know… because of the tism.
I accidentally left my martini in 2023…
If you know me even a little you probably know that the last two years of my life have been... intensecrazeda complete mental breakdownmeditativefull of growthdifficulta rollercoaster of medicationa cascade of evaluations and diagnoses full of doctorsfull of lovemuch pinker than the previous 45 years of my lifeI haven't had a lot of time to … Continue reading I accidentally left my martini in 2023…
so my therapist asked about my hair process…
I had a very productive session with my therapist on Monday. This is my standard all the time therapist that I'm seeing every week because that's just how life is right now. If you find yourself being late in life diagnosed with Autism and ADHD within a few months of one another I also encourage … Continue reading so my therapist asked about my hair process…
desperately seeking an ethical replacement for instagram…
Deep heavy sigh. The world has fallen into chaos once more and here I am with no instagram stories available for me to express my forty-seven-year-old-teenage feelings on. And it's by my own stupid choice. Let's face it, many of us need a break from all that is happening in our country. I poked my … Continue reading desperately seeking an ethical replacement for instagram…
little nikita…
When I was 11 I saw Little Nikita (starring Sidney Poitier, River Phoenix, and Richard Jenkins) and I really liked it. I was enthralled. If I’d had access to it to watch it over and over again I would have. It’s been a significantly long time since I’ve seen it. I know watching it today … Continue reading little nikita…
the thing about 2024…
2024 came on the heels of 2023. Let me tell you something about 2023. It was fucking rough. I don’t remember it particularly well, but I remember how it felt. Like I'd been hit by a semi-truck. In May of 2023 I flew home from a business trip overseas and slept for three days. When … Continue reading the thing about 2024…
the world mental health day post I wanted to write…
I feel too much. It has always been a problem for me. It's like someone put the dimmer switch for feelings all the way up when I was born. All feelings are big. Songs that make me feel happy or nostalgic make me feel so happy and nostalgic that my face begins to leak. When … Continue reading the world mental health day post I wanted to write…
Welcome to Portland…
This week, WordCamp US nestles into Portland, Oregon for the first time, so I thought I should take a moment to welcome all of you to Portland. Stumptown. Silicon Forest. Bridgetown. Rose City. Little Beruit. Rip City. Portlandia… Whatever you call it, Portland, Oregon is the big town I call home. Welcome. I’m so glad … Continue reading Welcome to Portland…
poetry time: what’s sad
I’d make a list for youOf all the things that are sadBut where would I start? What’s sad in the worldWhat’s sad in the countryWhat’s sad in the cityWhat’s sad on my blockWhat’s sad in my houseWhat’s sad in me? I don’t have the years to write out every bit of sadness.Here or anywhere. It’s … Continue reading poetry time: what’s sad
saying goodbye…
Would you rather listen to me read this? Click play... A few months ago I was putting together a playlist called Hallelujah. Predictably it was comprised of renditions of the song Hallelujah by different artists. At the time I was having a lot of powerful emotions and I had gotten stoned and listened to KD … Continue reading saying goodbye…
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