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Close-up of an anatomical model showing the hip joint — pelvic bone, lower spine, and the head of the femur held together with small metal hardware, against a soft gray background.

mutant notes 003: this tiny little dose…

June 23, 2026Leave a comment

Heads up: this is part of an ongoing series about my experience with GLP-1 medication. If that's a triggering topic, please feel free to skip. I'm not telling anyone what to do with their body. I just need to process this, and I figure someone out there is more scared than I am and could … Continue reading mutant notes 003: this tiny little dose…

mutant notes 002: a pretty tight grouping…

June 22, 2026Leave a comment

Heads up: this is part of an ongoing series about my experience with GLP-1 medication. If that's a triggering topic, please feel free to skip. I'm not telling anyone what to do with their body. I just need to process this, and I figure someone out there is more scared than I am and could … Continue reading mutant notes 002: a pretty tight grouping…

A dense collage of vintage wine labels overlapping each other, featuring ornate typography, château illustrations, and varied colors against the labels' aged paper backgrounds.

labels matter…

June 21, 2026Leave a comment

It's 7:23 in the morning on Father's Day. I'm curled up in bed next to a sleeping father. Not my father. Not the father of my child. Also not just some dad. In a weird way he's sort of everyone's startup dad in Portland. But he's asleep so we'll move on. I didn't actually come … Continue reading labels matter…

A small glass bottle of dark liquid with a cork-and-leaf stopper, sitting on mossy forest ground among scattered leaves and a piece of driftwood.

I’m not the entrepreneurial sort…

June 18, 20261 Comment

I'm working for myself now. Which is not something I ever particularly wanted to do, if I'm honest. Before I go any further, let me be specific. Because my partner spends his days working with founders, and founders are entrepreneurs in the Merriam-Webster sense: entrepreneurial — having to do with the creation and development of … Continue reading I’m not the entrepreneurial sort…

Three plastic syringes filled with red liquid, arranged diagonally across a deep coral background.

mutant notes 01: did I mention I’m afraid of needles…

June 17, 2026Leave a comment

Heads up: this is the opening piece of a series about my experience starting GLP-1 medication. If that's a triggering topic, please feel free to skip. I'm not telling anyone what to do with their body. I just need to process this, and I figure someone out there is more scared than I am and … Continue reading mutant notes 01: did I mention I’m afraid of needles…

of sauce packets and tarot boxes…

June 3, 2026Leave a comment

Sunday night the insomnia ghosts came calling. You know the ones. Anxiety. Inspiration. Critical reflection. Hunger. The usual roster. Inspiration was loudest that night. Of course, the muse. I've been racking my brain for what to do with the discarded tarot card boxes. When I take a deck apart for a mix deck, the original … Continue reading of sauce packets and tarot boxes…

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letters from the rest cure…

May 12, 2026Leave a comment

A retroactive translation The 8th of April, in this year of our discontent Dear Reader, Today I have begun to be weaned from my tonic by order of Dr. S—. The reduction is significant — by a third, she has said, "to keep the worst of it manageable." I had not known the tonic was … Continue reading letters from the rest cure…

Detailed view of a vintage BMW car grille showcasing iconic design with chrome features.

for a while…

May 2, 2026Leave a comment

It's 6:26 am on a Saturday. I'm currently stoned on a delicate balance of Bruce Banner, to give me the ability and energy to actually move this meat sack I'm living in, and Purple Punch, to dull all of the joint pain and muscle pain enough to let me stay present in it. The last … Continue reading for a while…

⏺ Dozens of hand-tied beaded necklaces laid out side by side — semi-precious stone malas in every color. Greens, blues, amber, white, black, coral, turquoise, yellow.

as I was saying…

April 25, 2026April 25, 20262 Comments

I spent a lot of time over the past few years looking for a new way to be professional. My nervous breakdown slash autism surprise slash ADHD diagnosis slash leaving the workforce slash trying to find myself as a human without inserting myself into toxic and unhealthy cultures came at an inconvenient time, frankly. The … Continue reading as I was saying…

Close-up of spiky pink dried seed pods or thistle heads clustered together, their bristled textures catching soft light against a pale textured background.

a slightly mad sight to behold…

April 23, 2026April 23, 2026Leave a comment

As I was coming in the back door just now I made eye contact with my own reflection. It was a slightly mad sight to behold. My face pale and tired punctuated with my huge dark tortoiseshell glasses with unexpected pops of color in them, the lenses mid tint as I returned from taking the … Continue reading a slightly mad sight to behold…

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