Today was a day like many others. For some it could be considered downright ordinary. Routine. But not so much for me. I'm striving for a new normal. A new ordinary. A new routine. Routines are my friend. They help keep me grounded. They help keep me calm. They help keep my anxiety at bay … Continue reading anxiety’s secret agenda: whispers
Category: babble
one more day…
The past tree months have been a whirlwind. Do you remember when you were a kid how quickly summer vacation went? Sabbatical felt like that. Like it happened in no time at all. But it also feels like it's been ages since I sat down to work with my teammates both at Automattic and in … Continue reading one more day…
this post has been making me anxious…
While it’s often easy to be self effacing, nothing matches the difficulty of saying, "There's something wrong with me." And meaning it. It's hard to acknowledge that you're different in a way that isn't “special.” That isn't “good.” That isn't “normal.” That people think is “wrong” or “weird.” That you think is wrong. It's hard … Continue reading this post has been making me anxious…
the sabbatical halfway mark…
Before my sabbatical began Rick was having a conversation with someone who asked how he thought it would go or what I was planning to do. Something. I don't remember who he was talking to (was it you?) and I don't remember what they asked. But I remember what he told me he answered. He … Continue reading the sabbatical halfway mark…
a second month of sabbatical…
I dreamt this morning that I was on sabbatical and had been for one month. Which is true. Today marks the first day of my second month of sabbatical. That was the case in the dream as well, only in this dream-life I was not a community organizer for the WordPress open source project. I … Continue reading a second month of sabbatical…
the sabbatical begins…
It takes a certain amount of effort being comfortable in your own skin, and really I thought I was closer to being there than I appear to actually be. But as my friend reminded me this morning this is a big change for me, for my rhythm. And change takes time. So for all of … Continue reading the sabbatical begins…
the sabbatical lists…
I've never been quite sure why, but particularly in times of stress or uncertainty my brain functions as a long series of lists. I have this mental image of those unending scrolls that would roll out in a movie about Santa neatly filled edge to edge with list after list after list. All the work … Continue reading the sabbatical lists…
41 and learning to share…
It would surprise no one who knows me in my personal life that my birthday is, for me, a big deal. While others would like the anniversary of their birth to pass with nary a reminder, I prefer to be reminded that this is a day of Cami celebration over and over and over again. … Continue reading 41 and learning to share…
the ocean wins…
Yesterday we walked along the beach clad in tall rain boots, jeans, and raincoats. The clouds above were dark and fluffy. Thinning out in spots to reveal a brilliant blue sky. We guarded ourselves from the gentle gusts of wind with stocking caps as we watched foam from the waves tumble across the glossy wet … Continue reading the ocean wins…
surviving the sunpocalypse…
Yesterday North America witnessed a celestial event the likes of which many of us had never seen. Or that we just couldn't remember. Not because this doesn't happen every few years, but because it doesn't happen every few years here. And it's never happened in North America during the age of the internet when all … Continue reading surviving the sunpocalypse…
