I wrote something a long time ago. It was one part of a single sentence that I wrote here on my blog when I was in the midst of what turned out to be a pretty messy and unhappy divorce. Not that many divorces are happy. But mine was rough. I'm speaking for myself here. … Continue reading happy father’s day to me…
A lot of folx don't know this about me, but I'm actually a ray of fucking sunshine. I'm, sometimes frustratingly so, a bright-sider. A silver lining kind of gal. I'm always searching for the good that comes from any situation. In order to cope with awful scenarios and truths about life, I've made a lifelong … Continue reading but let’s not put things in perspective…
Have you ever tried to work an unfamiliar alarm clock that sounds like a fire alarm, with no warning that it would go off, in the dark, without your glasses, at 6am (but 5am in your own timezone) having been awoken by said alarm in the middle of an anxiety dream? Welcome to my morning. … Continue reading the alarm…
Last night I when I went to bed I was tired. Very tired. I was looking forward to a night of healthy natural sleep. I had brushed my teeth, put up my hair, and put on this one song that's supposed to make you sleepier than any other music-scape ever created. As my head nestled … Continue reading You’re letting me do what?
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be Snow White if I lived in the woods instead of the city… It may be part of the reason I don't like to go camping. My life, my entire life, has been filled with odd and remarkable animal encounters. Most of them not entirely positive. It started at young … Continue reading the bobcat’s tale…
Years ago in the middle of a life upheaval I had to buy a new sofa, and quickly. I needed something that would fit into my new space. My new place was smaller than my old place so I needed something scaled down. But since it was only being used by a couple of adults … Continue reading oh that’s right, we don’t have a couch…
Today was a day like many others. For some it could be considered downright ordinary. Routine. But not so much for me. I'm striving for a new normal. A new ordinary. A new routine. Routines are my friend. They help keep me grounded. They help keep me calm. They help keep my anxiety at bay … Continue reading anxiety’s secret agenda: whispers
The past tree months have been a whirlwind. Do you remember when you were a kid how quickly summer vacation went? Sabbatical felt like that. Like it happened in no time at all. But it also feels like it's been ages since I sat down to work with my teammates both at Automattic and in … Continue reading one more day…
While it’s often easy to be self effacing, nothing matches the difficulty of saying, "There's something wrong with me." And meaning it. It's hard to acknowledge that you're different in a way that isn't “special.” That isn't “good.” That isn't “normal.” That people think is “wrong” or “weird.” That you think is wrong. It's hard … Continue reading this post has been making me anxious…
Before my sabbatical began Rick was having a conversation with someone who asked how he thought it would go or what I was planning to do. Something. I don't remember who he was talking to (was it you?) and I don't remember what they asked. But I remember what he told me he answered. He … Continue reading the sabbatical halfway mark…
