I never seem to fit in very well anywhere.
Except at home that is. I fit in here just fine.
Out in the world is another matter. Out there with the people.
Today was an odd day for me… today I seemed to fit in just fine and truth be told I’m not quite sure what to make of it.
When school was out I went to pick up K and since it was such a beautiful day I said yes when she asked if she could sit with her friend in the sun and finish her lunch. There they sat, she and her friend, in the warm Spring light finishing a sandwich, drinking some juice. Smiling.
As they sat and ate I sat with the friend’s mom… I woman I genuinely like. A woman I would call I friend. Hell for the sake of argument… I will call her one.
We chatted and laughed and then another mom we like came and asked to join us. We three formed a little circle talking of life, children, work. Laughing. Smiling. Wondering. Another mom soon joined in and the children continued to play. One here, one there, two way over there… they played all around the yard and as we talked we would swivel our heads to locate a child or two continuing to listen or talk all the while.
As we sat there I thought nothing of it at all. It seemed to most natural thing in the world as we lounged in the warm rays enjoying the day and each other.
It seemed like we’d done it a thousand times.
Maybe they had.
That effortless worry free conversation on the playground with the other moms, it was a first for me,
Normally I’m the one standing alone.