If you're anything like me I've already gotten Jane Says stuck in your head and you're having a full blown nostalgia throwback to your younger days. It shouldn't be too hard considering that everything I wore in the 90s is back with a vengeance. But let's shake that loose and get back to the point … Continue reading learning to knit: James says…
Let me start off by saying that the title? That is a lie. An utter fabrication. If I were honest I would have titled this "I thought I just learned to knit and then realized I was utterly wrong and felt defeated..." Every decade or so I decide I want to learn to knit. I … Continue reading I just learned to knit…
Today was a day like many others. For some it could be considered downright ordinary. Routine. But not so much for me. I'm striving for a new normal. A new ordinary. A new routine. Routines are my friend. They help keep me grounded. They help keep me calm. They help keep my anxiety at bay … Continue reading anxiety’s secret agenda: whispers
The past tree months have been a whirlwind. Do you remember when you were a kid how quickly summer vacation went? Sabbatical felt like that. Like it happened in no time at all. But it also feels like it's been ages since I sat down to work with my teammates both at Automattic and in … Continue reading one more day…
While it’s often easy to be self effacing, nothing matches the difficulty of saying, "There's something wrong with me." And meaning it. It's hard to acknowledge that you're different in a way that isn't “special.” That isn't “good.” That isn't “normal.” That people think is “wrong” or “weird.” That you think is wrong. It's hard … Continue reading this post has been making me anxious…
I’ve never been comfortable in stillness the aching awareness of one place with no motion you can feel everything the eeriness of it the yearning to move the ache where your body rests on the world just so. Just so still and while I lay still my mind would do loops as the world moved … Continue reading in stillness…
Before my sabbatical began Rick was having a conversation with someone who asked how he thought it would go or what I was planning to do. Something. I don't remember who he was talking to (was it you?) and I don't remember what they asked. But I remember what he told me he answered. He … Continue reading the sabbatical halfway mark…
As previously discussed here I made a lot of lists moving into this sabbatical. I did a lot of thinking. I made gentle plans. And in doing so I thought I had used all the practical knowledge I had on hand. I tried to predict what Cami would do with a 3 month period of … Continue reading expect the unexpected: a sabbatical warning about plants…
I dreamt this morning that I was on sabbatical and had been for one month. Which is true. Today marks the first day of my second month of sabbatical. That was the case in the dream as well, only in this dream-life I was not a community organizer for the WordPress open source project. I … Continue reading a second month of sabbatical…
When I was a kid I was convinced of a lot of things. There was a toothy monster lurking in the deep end of the pool, wild boars are evil and had a personal vendetta against me, I'd be kidnapped if I went to the bathroom by myself in a public place, my brother was … Continue reading a tale of anxiety in many parts: recognition
