You know that scene in the movie in which some woman is chronicling her life. She's seated in front of the laptop staring at the blinking cursor on the blank screen and the voiceover starts. I've been sitting here for the past few minutes replaying that scene in my head. But it's me staring at … Continue reading 44 and wondering what even is time anymore…
I had to run an errand. It was important. I was out of gin. That's one of the very few things that I still go get. Almost everything except liquor we have delivered. Yes, it's admittedly a privilege. A significant one. But given a huge pile of givens — including but not limited to the … Continue reading two blocks…
My neighbor's kids used to whisper that I was a shut-in. They used to think I was afraid to leave my house because as far as they could tell I was always home. Their dad taught them if there was ever an emergency and he wasn't home or they couldn't find him that they should … Continue reading changing the things I can…
Have you ever tried to work an unfamiliar alarm clock that sounds like a fire alarm, with no warning that it would go off, in the dark, without your glasses, at 6am (but 5am in your own timezone) having been awoken by said alarm in the middle of an anxiety dream? Welcome to my morning. … Continue reading the alarm…
This morning after going out to breakfast my daughter and I went to the pet supply store. It's mostly a dog supply store but in one corner of the store, one very large corner, it's filled with a huge variety of cat related items from the practical to the extravagant. We took our time looking … Continue reading Did you get a new cat?
This is not my story to tell, but sometimes you tell a story anyway. A story that impacts you deeply. One that has informed and influenced your entire life. One that you've known since the day you were born, but can't possibly know all of. Despite what the title says, the story starts more than … Continue reading 50 years…
Last night I when I went to bed I was tired. Very tired. I was looking forward to a night of healthy natural sleep. I had brushed my teeth, put up my hair, and put on this one song that's supposed to make you sleepier than any other music-scape ever created. As my head nestled … Continue reading You’re letting me do what?
Okay universe. I hear you loud and freaking clear... Noted. The universe, it totally gets that message. It knows what I'm talking about, but let me expand a bit for the rest of you while I preach and also practice. You can't effectively care for others when you're not taking care of yourself. You can't … Continue reading practice what you preach: community builder self care edition…
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be Snow White if I lived in the woods instead of the city… It may be part of the reason I don't like to go camping. My life, my entire life, has been filled with odd and remarkable animal encounters. Most of them not entirely positive. It started at young … Continue reading the bobcat’s tale…
I think the headline says it all. I am deep in the middle of questioning who I am at the very heart of my being. As long as I have known myself certain truths have always been both deeply engrained in who I am and floating right on the surface for all to see. They … Continue reading pea based existential crisis…
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