Monday is therapy day for me. It maybe doesn’t seem like a good idea to stack lifelong trauma work and mental health check-ins at the start of a new week in the hellscape we’re all living through… but somehow it works. I get just enough distance from the last week to reflect and reset before … Continue reading Masking Monday: The Illness I Pretend Isn’t There
I feel too much. It has always been a problem for me. It's like someone put the dimmer switch for feelings all the way up when I was born. All feelings are big. Songs that make me feel happy or nostalgic make me feel so happy and nostalgic that my face begins to leak. When … Continue reading the world mental health day post I wanted to write…
We're four months into a mostly self imposed quarantine caused by a global pandemic the likes of which I've never seen. I mean I've imagined it. I've imagined worse. Lifelong anxiety disorder and a love of zombie movies will do that to you. I've long been convinced that when the time comes that we have … Continue reading I’m worried sick you’re not worried about being sick…
Yesterday morning I woke up in St. Louis. I rolled out of bed hours before I needed to and showered, checked to make sure everything was packed for my trip home, worked a little, and then met some folx in the hotel lobby for pre-breakfast tea and coffee. I was feeling a lot tired. A … Continue reading panic on the streets of St. Louis…
It was about 16 months ago that I scheduled an appointment with my doctor, a woman who had developed great rapport and had earned my trust and respect, in order to mumble and skirt the issue and then cry when telling her I no longer felt able to cope with my anxiety on my own. … Continue reading confessions of a former sauce packet hoarder…
Last night I when I went to bed I was tired. Very tired. I was looking forward to a night of healthy natural sleep. I had brushed my teeth, put up my hair, and put on this one song that's supposed to make you sleepier than any other music-scape ever created. As my head nestled … Continue reading You’re letting me do what?
Okay universe. I hear you loud and freaking clear... Noted. The universe, it totally gets that message. It knows what I'm talking about, but let me expand a bit for the rest of you while I preach and also practice. You can't effectively care for others when you're not taking care of yourself. You can't … Continue reading practice what you preach: community builder self care edition…
This post is not going to have any pictures because no one wants to see a picture of hives. It's not like my hives were in the shape of Mickey Mouse or a cute heart swirled into a mocha foam or a deity. They were just hives. Itchy painful insanity making hives. And I had … Continue reading and then I had hives…
Sometimes I wonder if I'd be Snow White if I lived in the woods instead of the city… It may be part of the reason I don't like to go camping. My life, my entire life, has been filled with odd and remarkable animal encounters. Most of them not entirely positive. It started at young … Continue reading the bobcat’s tale…
Years ago in the middle of a life upheaval I had to buy a new sofa, and quickly. I needed something that would fit into my new space. My new place was smaller than my old place so I needed something scaled down. But since it was only being used by a couple of adults … Continue reading oh that’s right, we don’t have a couch…
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